Thursday, December 31, 2009
I MADE MYSELF A PRIORITY. FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE, I PUT ME FIRST.
Every other thing I have done this year has stemmed from that one accomplishment. At first I was nervous about it. I thought that best bud or hubby would be mad or hurt or feel less important. Nope. I was wrong. They were super encouraging and always let me make time for the gym or would eat things based on what was best for my diet. I just love them. I want to squeeze them til their heads pop off. Okay, maybe not that tight.
If you are afraid to do this one simple thing to accomplish your goals, I suggest you give it a try. I even switched the school I worked at. I started over. I moved everything. I had to start at square one with co-workers. It has not been super easy (I really miss my old buds) but it was to make more time and less stress for me.
Because of these things, I have more confidence. I was able to say goodbye to my personal trainer and still be successful (giving me lots more cash in my pocket). I lost another 75 pounds. I went from a size 20 to a size 10. I love to shop now (like I did today and bought lots of stuff). I completed the Mud Run - including every obstacle. I am so proud of that. I am also now able to eat something bad for me (say maybe a Big Mac on the way home from Christmas last week - maybe) and know I will not regain 115 pounds from that one meal. And to tell you the truth, I did not regret it or feel fat after.
I have learned. I can do this. Everyday. With every choice. My attitude has changed the most this year. It isn't all or nothing. It is just give and take. It has to be or you cannot stick with it.
Well with that, I will finish getting ready for the New Years party I am about to attend (I shall eat pizza but not drink alcohol so I can drive - see give and take - and tomorrow I will run like I did today). Thank you all for being such great friends this year. I am truly grateful for you, your blogs and super hilarious comments.
Cheers to us and our successes in the year to come!
Monday, December 28, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
It has given me time to enjoy my in-laws (I really do enjoy them - funny folks) and dogs and exercise. We have even played games and watched movies. Like families used to do in the olden days.
I have been thinking of some things that have changed from last Christmas to this Christmas. So here they are:
- I had lost 40 pounds and was so proud.
- I was scared to death that eating too much at Christmas dinner would make me gain back all 40 pounds (this is no exaggeration)
- I was super nervous about leaving my environment and schedule.
- Travelled by car for days to see all the family (exhausting and not healthy).
- Realized I was still pretty fat, even after all I had lost and exercised.
- Never thought I would lose 100 pounds.
- Elf was my favorite Christmas movie.
- I have lost another 75 pounds and I am even more proud. I FEEL so good!! Especially in my new size 10 jeans (this seems so unreal to me).
- I know I can eat over in calories. It is just a holiday. I need to just keep exercising and get back to my routine when I get home.
- I am super relaxed. I know I can do this. I brought things that I need to keep up with my workouts and am doing cardio on the in-laws treadmill (I am making it up myself and doing well I believe).
- We travelled to see one family and asked that the other come to visit us (and they actually are). Much healthier (for me anyway).
- Realized that if I never lose another pound, I will be EXTREMELY happy with where I am.
- Cannot believe I lost 115 pounds. Now I am wondering/studying/researching maintenance.
- Elf is still my favorite Christmas movie. Some things never change. And never should.
The realization of how far I have come and how great my health is - that is the present I get today. It may not come in a box with pretty paper and a bow but it is by far the BEST present I could ever get.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
I think that people losing weight usually focus on either diet or exercise. We work on both but have a strong suite for one. Mine is obviously exercise. I do not make any excuses. I do this religiously. Everyday. I love it.
Diet is another story. I count the calories. I try to learn about new things. I eat balanced meals. I eat 5 times a day (usually). But this is hard. I find myself saying - oh, you could have that extra (fill in the blank) for another 100 calories or so. This crap adds up. That is how I got so fat.
I fall back on the same stuff because it has given me pretty consistent results. I want to branch out a bit. I want to cook more. I mostly eat grilled chicken and salad (which I still love) but I want to try cooking other things. I need more support here.
Here is the question: Should I rejoin Weight Watchers?
I was a member from last Halloween until March. I was doing okay but I wanted to lose more. When I went to straight calorie counting it went faster. I have lost at least 50 pounds since I stopped WW.
Here are the pros:
- I would have to be accountable to someone other than me for the first time in a long time.
- If I have to step on that scale in front of others, perhaps I will not eat that extra 100 calories of whatever.
- The recipes. I love the recipe sharing and the healthy finds that others bring to meetings.
- Maybe I will get another 5 pounds or so off.
- I would feel a little less alone in this journey.
Here are the cons:
- I hate waiting for meetings to start and end. I mostly like the sharing of recipes and that is all.
- I love straight calorie counting. I HATE converting things to points.
- Will they let me join and say I only want to lose 5 pounds? I may want to lose more but I only want to tell them 5.
- Paying the membership fee.
- Crowded meetings after everyone makes their New Year's resolutions.
I know many of you have tried WW at one time or another (and still maybe members). What do you all think? If you were me, would you rejoin? Have you considered this on your journey?
PLEASE LEAVE ME A COMMENT WITH YOUR THOUGHTS!! You all are the experts here. I am turning to you for advice. Please share your wisdom!! Thank you. You all mean so much to me. Please don't take too long of a break over the holiday. I will miss you too much!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Did I miss a workout? Nope. The shoulders, arms and chest workout tonight was little much today after all that moving of crap but I did it. I was cursing in my head though.
However, in the midst of all of that work, we were decorating for Christmas. We decided we needed a new tree topper. We have looked everywhere. Everything left is crap. And I do mean crap. Someone told us we should try the Christmas store.
What is the Christmas store? We had never heard of such a place. Well, we found it. It is actually called the Decorators Warehouse. It is SPECTACULAR!! I have never seen anything quite like it. I did not want to leave as it is filled the holiday spirit. Pretty much anything you could ever want (except for a snowflake tree topper). I did look at how they topped their trees and I will give it a try but I am not sure I can pull it off.
This fabulous picture is from the inner section of the warehouse (before you get to the tearoom - yup, there is a tearoom). One of the MANY toy soldiers. Just to give you an idea, I am 5'10. Everything is bigger in Texas. So if you ever want to feel petite, just seek out a giant nut cracker or visit the Christmas store.
I shall post more pics tomorrow of my house. Why? Because I am just so excited about it. It is like a brand new house. I am no longer embarrassed to have people come over. That is how disgusting our carpet was. But no more!!
Hope you all had a terrific weekend. I will have a diet related post tomorrow. So please read it and comment. I will need feedback!
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Maybe Saturday. Eating was like a free-for-all yesterday. Mostly involving margaritas and a piece of cake (and perhaps some queso too). Major sodium intake and water retention. Still working my ass off (trying to literally) in the gym.
I am officially done trying to lose weight for the season. Now I am trying to minimize gains as the big food, slow moving holiday season is upon me.
No workouts have been missed. Not even with the drinking and helping my husband move crap for my new carpet. I still plan on my 5:30am class tomorrow as well. I cannot wait for tomorrow to be over.
The kids are CRAZY!! For those who do not know, I teach 1st grade. I have no children of my own - yet (don't worry best bud...I will be soon enough). Today (after the holiday party) my kids went to art. When I picked them up, 4 out of 21 had been written up (for being in trouble). I am not kidding you when I say that one of them got in trouble (and this is one of the perfect identical twins I have) for eating another student's art work.
Yes. I said eating. Come on now, didn't I just feed them? One of the other students got in trouble for telling him to do it. Man, that was a fun one to call and explain to parents. I am ready for the break. I have earned it.
I hope you all had a great week and keep those calories burning!
Sunday, December 13, 2009
That was Friday afternoon. It triggered a hunger in me that needed to be satisfied. I ate more than I should have Friday night (not super bad stuff, but a lot of it). Until I went for ice cream. I never liked ice cream really until I tried Brusters. This week the deliciousness was called chocolate peanut butter chip. I enjoyed every bite.
Saturday started out well. Worked out for over 2 hours (and I am sore from this new round of P90X - hello one-armed push-ups *do not be impressed* I looked like an injured animal) and ate Subway. Went to a Xmas party for a short while and only ate 2 cookies (which I could have turned down but I was getting hungry). Left there and shopped alot (for myself mostly) and got a burger for dinner (afterall, it was cheat meal night). Not too terrible until I decided I deserved some more of that ice cream and I ate it again.
The nerve of me, complaining about all these food temptations but I did this to myself. We have been doing biggest loser at school since August. We are going by pounds lost in one category and percentage in the other category. Some of these folks are way bigger than me. One lady has lost 20 pounds (I think I am at 15). If I could lose just a few more by Wednesday I would stand a chance at winning the percentage category. So why am I stuffing my face with delicious ice cream?
I am back to healthy eating....until that weigh-in on Wednesday. Then I have a holiday luncheon and dinner that day that I will par-take in. Tuesday is another potluck day but I can say no to that. Sometimes I just pretend that my co-workers have a lot of cats at their house that walk on the counters and drop hair balls everywhere and that if I bite into their sensational looking treats that I might get a disgusting hairball surprise. I know I am sick but it makes me not want to eat anything.
Then I will have to do my best to maneuver through the food road course until the New Year when everyone gets the same resolve that we have.
I guess I will be happy if I can maintain my weight through the month. I will continue my workouts and eating the best I can. For some reason, this seems harder to me than last December. I know I was focusing on hitting 40 pounds lost before school got out. I hit that goal with 2 days to spare and then I ate pretty much what I wanted over vacation. I gained a few pounds and it took a long time to get back to losing at a regular pace. I am not looking forward to that again either.
Oh well. Must suck it up and quit being my own worst enemy here. I need to get ready and workout. I can't be eating if I am exercising, right?
Friday, December 11, 2009
Food is EVERYWHERE, EVERYDAY!!! Enough already. I feel like just looking at it and smelling it is preventing me from losing this past month. I am being really good. I mean I eat NONE of it. At least until cheat meal. And I exercise like crazy. I guess I will be happy to maintain through the holiday.
My week off of P90x is coming to an end. Start weight training again tomorrow. So some days will be back to double workouts. I guess it will keep me out of the kitchen. Next week will be the worst of all. We must be strong!!! Have a restful weekend!
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Friday, December 4, 2009
That said, I have noticed that some bloggers are...how do you say?....MIA. If any of you are still reading blogs, please come back!! I miss some of the snarky commentary (although there are some of you who are still blogging regularly that keep me giggling - so thank you!!!). This journey is rough this time of year. We all know that. I am hoping those MIA are just really busy. But even if you fell off the wagon, we are reaching out our hands to pull you back on.
I may have gained 3 pounds but I do not want it to turn into 30. So I will blab on and on about my bumps in the road and know it is only temporary (fingers crossed).
May your scales only be kind to you and show you love. May Santa visit your home with better gifts! I am off to workout! Burn, baby, burn.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
My weight is still up and waiting for the lady troubles to be begin. It is kinda like waiting to be smacked in the face. I am trying not to flinch. I am sure the extra 300 to 500 calories I ate the past two nights after dinner have not helped. Not really bad calories, just more than I should have. Not even for hunger, just an overwhelming need to eat. And it tasted pretty good too. It is funny how being up a few pounds makes your mind go crazy. I keep thinking when I look in the mirror those old pictures will be looking back at me. But no. I do not look any different (read fatter), but that thought is still there - lurking in my mind. So instead of continuing to bitch about how hard this week is I decided to find one positive thing to focus on.
I started trying to run a little bit (and I mean little - like the distance of 4 mailboxes on my street) last fall - I weighed in the 270s. Not the easiest task in the world for me at the time. Then I continued to add a little more (not sure why I stuck with this, I am not a runner - maybe just to challenge myself). Oh, I did this with the vampire method (early morning under the cover of darkness so no one could see me or judge me). Today I can run a lot farther and a lot faster (and I feel fine doing it in public). Sometimes I feel like I can fly - even this morning being up a few pounds I felt that way.
Last December was when I first tried to run on a treadmill. I was scared to death everytime I did it for the first few weeks. I was scared I would fall and break my face. That, and man did my belly rolls flop around when I ran. I ran on the treadmill for 10 minutes as part of a warm up the other day and I did not think twice about it. Had that been my goal, I could have gone a lot longer and even faster. I was just trying to warm up my muscles. This is progress people. Especially for someone who is not a runner and will probably never be a runner. So there it is. All my sunshine and positivity - I must rest now.
I went to the doc yesterday. I asked about calories for maintenance and a good goal weight for my build (since no charts really take that into consideration). She was thinking between 160 and 170. She also thinks maintenance calories for me will probably only be an additional 200-300 per day. I am looking at about 1800 (when the time comes). Looks like I've got some more work to do! She also said I may have to drop to 1500 calories to get the last of the weight off (um, this sucks). I am having a hard enough time sticking to 1600 this week.
I just wish there was a specific formula to follow. Like with the Jenny Craig eating plan. The problem with that is, I want to enjoy my life too. It is all trial and error. This week I think I keep hitting on error. Maybe today I can hit on a winner of a day. No whammy, no whammy (90's game show reference - 10 points to you if you caught that).