Tuesday, November 30, 2010
I am back to my hard core workout classes at the gym and personal training. I am having a hard reminder of what it is like to be heavier. I was sore from personal training and had to do a ton of jumping jacks. Nothing feels more miserable than fat flapping around on sore muscles. My joints hurt from the extra weight. Time to start getting rid of it.
Last night I FINALLY stepped on the scale and had one of the girls take my measurements. Let's just say I have a HUGE mountain to climb. You know how I said I gained a lot in my thighs? Well it turns out to be 7 inches - PER THIGH. Holy cow!!
I also need to lose about 70 pounds. Yup, 70. I miss my size 10 clothes. Not sure if I will ever get back in them but I am going to try.
MY GOAL IS TO GET BACK TO A SIZE 10 (OR 12) AND DROP THESE 70 POUNDS BY JUNE.
Exercise is not my problem. It is all food now. I discovered this morning that I have turned myself into a sugar addict. I ate a healthy breakfast and just craved a cookie. The problem is that 1 cookie leads to 3 cookies. I out lasted the craving. I will just have to do that over and over until I have broken this AWFUL habit.
When I lost all my weight before I ate 1600 calories. Since I do still need to produce breast milk I am giving myself 2000 for now. I know it will suck starting this now but I cannot afford to let it go until January. I can do A LOT of damage in a small period of time.
Here is to no more mom jeans!!
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
I went to the doc and was released from whatever restrictions I was supposed to be enforcing. They said I lost a bunch of weight but I still do not want to know the number.
So my life is trying to do 1 thing a day out of the house. It is hard to even get laundry and showering done. Babies are a lot of work. She is now a month old. It feels like we may never have a schedule. She is still a REALLY good baby but has trouble pooping. It makes her all squirmy and uncomfortable through out the day. The doc says she will get over this, but when?
I pretty much live in my pajamas and watch TONS of television. I am not proud but my options are limited. I do play with Evie, read to her, sing to her and take her outside but her waking hours are limited. I feel like a lazy slug that eats all day. Hopefully this feeling shall pass because I REALLY enjoy interacting with my sweet baby.
As I type this, Evie is snoozing on my lap. I leave you with that image and say - ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND and the holiday rapidly approaching! Evie, hubs and I will be doing the turkey trot Thursday morning!
Thursday, November 11, 2010
- I named my daughter Evie. It is pronounced with a long e like in the name Eve. It is not short for Evelyn (which for some reason some of my family members thought). It is not short for anything. Just Evie. I only post this because people have asked.
- If I get one more anonymous comment advertising some super crappy penile enlargement cream from a foreign sounding person I may scream. So I have changed the settings on my comments. NO MORE ANONYMOUS COMMENTS!!! Suck on that a-holes whom no one wants to read comments from anyway!
- On to the title of my post - read on.
During my pregnancy I gained somewhere between 40 and 70 pounds. When the doc office told my I had gained 38 I would no longer let them tell me my weight. I am pretty hopefully it was less than 70 but I still have not gotten on a scale so I am not for sure. I do not want to be upset by it. Currently I am going by how clothes fit. Either way, I have a lot of work to do. However - my daughter was totally worth it! Even if I had gained back every pound I lost, all 115 of them.
Sidenote - I cannot help but think that if I had not lost the weight prior to getting pregnant by the end I could have easily weighed 350+ pounds. I am fairly certain that would have put me on medicine and bed rest. I am not a fan of either so I am TOTALLY grateful that I lost the weight first even if that means I have to lose it again now.
I was excited to put on my workout clothes, grab my daughter and my awesome BOB jogging stroller and head to the park for some serious walking.
I have been feeling good, not too disappointed by my body, just trying to get back in a groove. I even went to the gym my first week home. So I was pretty proud and eager to walk at the park. And then I heard it. It echoed LOUDLY in my ears. It could not be ignored. An unmistakable sound from my past....my super obese past. My thighs rubbing together in my workout clothes. I was slightly crushed but yet I walked. With speed and purpose. Yet I heard it over and over.
I knew I had gained a lot of weight in my thighs. It must be worked on. It must be reduced. I just have a feeling it will take longer to get rid of this time. At least I know it can be done. It shall be done again!
Friday, November 5, 2010
Who doesn't like naked babies? And yes, Evie did pooh while trying to capture these gems.