Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Feeling Bitchy

Man. I gotta say I think I have PMS today. Which is weird because that is not something that usually happens to me. Like, ever. I get HORRIBLE pain when I have lady troubles (sorry for this post boys) but never am I emotional.

I cry about twice a year. This is no exaggeration. Sometimes people think I am cold but I cannot help it if I cannot cry (this especially upsets people if I do not cry at sad movies).

Yesterday I was watching one of the Biggest Loser Finales and started to cry. I was so proud for them and myself. They have great stories. So what do I do? Rewind and watch the part that made me cry again. Out of character for me really. Throughout this journey I have not cried about it. Not about how I got fat, not about getting stuck, not about losing it. But this week I am still flying high. I feel so great. I actually feel proud and accomplished. It made me run farther and faster yesterday. This pride has made me cry. Seems weird to me but this probably happens to others (right?).

Today, no tears. However, my husband came home for a little while for the pool guy to do something and I just wanted him to leave. I wanted to scream "Get out of my way!!" "When you are done with silverware, put it in the dishwasher. How hard is that?"

Anyone who knows my husband knows he is awesome and would never deserve to hear those things so I just screamed in my head until he left. Now I feel like I can relax. I need to concentrate on things and he is distracting (like when I am trying for HOURS to recover any data from our crashed motherboard and he is asking me questions about it - just let me do it and we can discuss it later).

Maybe he was concerned when I told him I was gonna go all "Office Space" on the old computer and beat the crap out of it.

Man I hope this attitude passes quickly. If this is PMS, I am not enjoying it. Do drugs help it? I like to pop pills if they make things better quickly.

So far today I have done one workout - bodypump. It was pretty good. I love kick-ass instructors. She burned up my muscles. The good news is there was no drama and my shoes were dry. Of course, I was at lady gym. We will see how tomorrow is at the training studio. I have two more workouts today. Perhaps they will make me less bitchy. Wish me luck on that!


F. McButter Pants said...

Good luck on the workouts...2 really?? You are so dedicated.

Good luck on the bitchy thing too! Way to cry!!

Fat[free]Me said...

I can only think of things fattening or illegal, so no help whatsoever on how to deal with PMS.

Well done on the amazing workouts - woo-hoo!

Aimee said...

i'm cranky today, so i can relate.

i read through all of your updates over the last 2 weeks. you are still so motivating. your starting weight and mine are very similar - you give me hope, love!!!

jo said...

"If this is PMS, I am not enjoying it. Do drugs help it? I like to pop pills if they make things better quickly."

Gee, you don't know how I love that last sentence. lol I wish there were a magic pill to pop. No, nothing helps but massive amounts of chocolate, and we don't want to go there.

PMS sucks.

I've read that exercise helps--it hasn't helped me, but my hormones are all wacky anyway.

Good going on your workouts.

"Snack" to Weight Loss Eating? said...

I think we all cry over different things. On occasion I think its good to let it all out.

Emmett said...

Oh and good luck with the PMS thing, I am not very educated on that. Not sure what else to say.

HD@Losing Weight-Healthy Heart said...

Maybe there is something in the blog-air - I am feeling the same way! Except for the fact that I cry at everything all the time :) Hang in there

Lisa said...

Good luck! I hope your PMS feels better soon!

Diane, Fit to the Finish said...

Crying is therapy! I hope you have an ever improving day! That workout sounds great.

wildfluffysheep said...

as always i am jealous of your work out efforts.

sorry to hear about the moody moods. hot bath, good book and some good chocolate. sorts me out :D hope you're all good now x

Crys said...

I'm so with you! I was never a crier until I started this journey. I, no shit, have cried more in the last 2 months than I have in the last 2 years. It's therapeutic at times.

You're entitled to a rotten mood from time-to-time. Just ride it out and you'll be back to yourself in no time. Baths and (No Pudge) Brownies always help with my bitch factor!

~Crystal said...

I'm giving you an award on my blog. :)