Tuesday, March 16, 2010

I never want to forget...

2006 (it has been a while but I assume I was in a bar....drinking. SHOCKER!)
2006 (teaching kindergarten at the time, hence the cool number necklace)
2010 (last month with no power, yes I roasted marshmallows in my fireplace and I was wearing 5 shirts - no exaggeration!)
2010 (when the fam came to visit)
My goal of this blog is not to constantly throw my fatness in your face. Although it may seem like it at times. But I really never want to forget how far I have come. I never want to forget how it felt to be that size. And I never want to go back. I was going through some old digital photos because I am sending a package to one of my old students and thought it would be fun to send some pictures. I also realized I have not seen her in a long time and if she saw me on the street, she would not recognize me. I am sending the pics anyway because they were a fun time in both of our lives. I am sharing them here just because they kind of took my breath away for a moment.
For those who are new to the blog, that is 115 pounds lost and I believe the jeans went from a size 24 to a 10. Such an improvement just on the dark wash of the jeans alone.
Some people never want to be reminded of the times they were at their heaviest. I never want to forget. It totally made me who I am today. It helps motivate me. It allows me to have empathy for others. Being overweight (or morbidly obese like I was) hurts...in many ways. It is a hurt I do not wish to feel again.

18 comments:

BEE said...

love this post
it does hurt and i never want to feel it again either

Ex Yo-Yo Dieter Debbie said...

Hope you're feeling well!

I like this post - powerful! And it rings so true for me too.

I never want to go back...ever.

Crys said...

Oh hell! I'm PMSing because I'm definitely in tears. Sweet post!

FollowMeDown30 said...

Wonderful Post!

Corletta said...

Girl...you look amazing and encourage the snot out of me. What I need to know is how you did it and how long it took you! I. too, always want to remember the old me. I think it keep me humble. I mean dang...I was 220 and couldn't run a 1/2 a mile. Now...on my own, I am 180 and just completed a marathon! Woot woot!

Seth said...

Great Job! Really good post.

Sarah @ Keep On Keepin' On said...

My fat pictures are the biggest motivation I have. They are a great inspiration.

JewliaGoulia said...

What a great post!

Right now, I am where you began. I hope to someday be where you are. You are an inspiration!

Have a great day!

Julia
http://jewliagoulia.blogspot.com

lindsey said...

love your post and I can definately relate :)

Melissa said...

Never forget and never go back... great words. And you looks amazing!!!

wildfluffysheep said...

I love that you post these pictures.

I want to be able to do this some day.
good for you. never forget.

<3

Lisa said...

Don't ever ever forget. I did....and gained back 60 flippin' pounds!!! Now it's overwhelming AGAIN!!! Always remember where you were...

Great before and afters as always. You really look great :)

CJ said...

What a change! You should be proud of yourself!

Linda at Bar Mitzvahzilla said...

The empathy for others reason you mentioned really struck a chord. No matter how long I've looked "normal" (and it's been about ten years) I remember what it was like to live life fat and unhappy and always starting but never completing a diet. The fat girl inside of me makes me a human being. I don't regret my days (years) with my weight problem, I just wish it hadn't been so many.

Alison said...

Great post. I never want to forget either, I want to remember so that I can avoid ever going back to that place.
Your pictures are fantastic and inspirational. Keep it up.

EmpowerMePhotoGuy said...

Wow, the changes you've made are amazing, you should be so proud! You say you never want to go back, and you never will. You have the vision of success right there, and that vision will inspire and empower you! Best of luck!

Tammy said...

Oh yes, it definitely hurts, in so many ways. I'm working on shedding that hurt myself. Can't wait to be where you're at! :)

Carly said...

You are awesome.

There, I said it!

You're right, it does hurt. Before I started losing weight, the hurt that I was feeling was minimal. As the pounds are shed, I get more and more upset some days. I look at old pictures, and I feel sorry for that girl, and for everything that I put her through.

One day, I'll forgive myself, and the hurt will lessen every day. I'll never forget, though - once I do, I could end up hurting that girl all over again.