Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Why do I do this to myself?

What is it that I do? Extremes. Especially with eating and exercise. I have gotten better. I never give up the exercise. Even on bad days I do a little something. But I am usually hard-core high intensity or very low intensity. Eating is another beast since this pregnancy.

My breakfast is perfectly balanced, full of fiber, fruit, veggies, calcium and protein. My snacks are portioned and balanced. My lunch today was cucumbers and bell pepper, an orange, 1/2 a turkey sandwich (loaded with veggies), a handful of chips and a bottle of water. But once night hits, watch out friends! I have been eating carbs like cereal and crackers after a healthy dinner to keep my belly from hurting. Not today. A burger sounded good. It tasted good too. It just doesn't sit well. Even now, 3 to 4 hours later.

Was it the burger that made me miserable? Maybe it was after I added the fries. Or perhaps those few onion rings. I know, the regular soda (which I pretty much only drink water and milk right now). The crowning glory? How about not 1, not 2, not 3, but 4 low-fat cookies. Oink, oink.

We are talking the kind of misery where you can't even sleep. Just feel the pain in your belly. So what did I do? Exercise. Man did I want to throw up. It was my punishment to myself. I have learned 2 things. #1- my hunger is exaggerated (it feels almost like a panic inside sometimes) and #2 - I should always exercise before dinner.

I used to only do this to myself at cheat meals. I need to learn control at night. That will be a goal for tomorrow as I have to eat out with some old co-workers (totally makes me feel even worse thinking about that). My belly will recover, but what a long painful night!


cmoursler said...

it's over, let it go..Tomorrow is a new day. It's just one day.

tisha said...

Hellllooooo!!! *CONGRATULATIONS on your pregnancy!!!!! I've been M.I.A. for awhile, and just read that you're expecting. That is so wonderful!!!!

Cassie said...

I have had the same problem with food the last 2 days. I want to eat everything. Then 45 minutes later I have hunger pains. WTH? I have recently had beef too, extra lean though. Made a hamburger with it. I usually do turkey meat. But the thought of the turkey texture makes me want to gag. So I used extra lean beef. No worries. Sometime I feel that worrying is all I do. You will get through it though!!

Mae Flowers said...

We all do that sometimes. I can never think of WHY I do it afterwards though...a mystery.

Rob Dyess said...

I have a similar experience.... my eating seems to get worse as the day goes on.

What IS up with that?


BornSquishy said...

I can't even begin to imagine what cravings would be like during a pregnancy.... but I'm guessing that the normal cravings anyone has that struggles with food, would be totally out of wack & next to impossible to ignore all the time.

Like Mary said.... "it's over", tomorrow you get to start fresh.